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Sunday, August 12, 2007
2:29 AM
heylo world.
ok i just had to blog now..of all times at 2.30 am now. bcuz fer the whole day ive been blogging inside my head. ok basically most of the blogging was actually cursing inside my head.
started the day with..a friggin headache which results into a bad flu after eating panadol for cold wch ironically is meant to treat flu. ate breakfast without tasting wat the heck i ate on the table.. n then left the hse n walked to the mrt stn. oh i guess lady luck decided to friggin ditch me today. cuz..suddenly hey it started to drizzle. n then it became worse. me n my big bag plus my paperbag with my uniform really makes me irritated to take my umbrella out.n hence the drizzle got worse n of curz i was wet.
then at work. well i cant be starting the day with enthusiasm can i wat with flu n all. n then things jus start to get worse. hey my biatch was working today.n all she can do is to bloody get on my nerves. she got the nerve to STeal my customers away n then key in her blardy name in the com as if she blardy served them...blardy*****. she was damn lucky im JUST a partimer. if i was a full timer...i wldve given her a damn slap on her face cuz HELLO u got any brains or any senses left that u cant see that shes MY customer??? blardy BIATCH!
ok...so i was complaining n whining to evrybdy else....n then she did it again. i was actually in the process of serving MY customer...i was TALKING To MY customer abt colours n all. n then as if im invisible...she jus butts in n asked..." hows the fitting mam?" as if im not even there...like HELLO! **** you! im serving here...wtf r u trying to do?i was SO so soooo damn blardy fkd up...my face was black the whole damn day. i ignored her tried my best to ignore her n curse her all the curses i know...silently of curz.
but just so happens that my clumsy day had to be today. i bet u ppl might be guessing wat ain did next? haha. i went to buy water n sum fruits n when i gt back into the shop..while trying to squeeze my way btwn boxes n the pathetic space behind the counter now with the bitch standing in the way...my legs gave way fer no blardy reason...n poop i fall into the box. can u imagine the tv size box with half the height of it?wch means im practically in the box with my legs hanging outside n i have no way of getting myself out without any help. and kind ruby is the ferst one to laugh her hearts out jus like my good fren nithiya laughed when i tripped n fall in btwn the tables n chairs in sch last time. n wat cld be better to have my most hated enemy as the prime savior who actually help pulled me out of the box...
wow. i can laugh at my own face man.
dear dear sweet biatch of mine...im not trying to be a sudden hypocrite. but ur a pure biatch. n ull always be...unless of curz if ull stop ur bossy attitude n ur know-it-all moments and giving ppl the cold stares n try to at least try to be a good FRiEND...then mayb...juz mayb...u can be erased from my hated list n ur biatch name will be changed.
but anws....i had no choice...i owe her a thanx..can u imagine urself juz falling into a box in frnta a whole lot of customers...n have ur frens laughing at u insted of helping u? oh man...that MUst be an entertaining sight.so yeah...i thank her...sincerely of curz...tho i still held the grudge fer stealing my customers n lacking the every manners as a colleague. so yeah...after that...she was happy enuff to talk to me after a vain try in the earlier afternoon when i was smoking in anger.
n then...train ride home was soooo blardy tiring...it has been often enuff that i stand during most of my journey home in the train..n i cant stand it ...cuz ive been practically standing for the whole damn blardy day since 12pm!n i sooo need to sit! n then theres this weird woman who keeps walking back n forth back n forth...n i had no blardy idea wat shes trying to do in that crowded train...man was i damn pissed when she get to sit b4 i did.urgh! yeah blame my pms fer my sudden outburst of anger.ive been having planty of outburst lately.
n then now.
now sigh...i hate to blog abt this.n i wun. i just dun understand...how you can take it being torured this long this hard...i wldve given up if i were u.. i dun understand this guy either...n i dunno wat he wants. all i know is that...theres no element of trust here anymore.not a single particle of it. n when there is none...how can either of u believe each other? it takes time to build trust u know. n right now with so so many complicated conflicts and all..i really dunno how u can make him believe u..in just an instant..unless of curz u guys r willling to start anew. but i can see that one party isnt willing.n its simply no use ok...no use to complicate things further wat with more lies n all...n a relationship based on lies...is based on Nothing at all. can u just take a step back n think wat good is this going to bring if neither party can actually be matured enough to bring this relationship to a level where there is understanding and a compromise? im sorry but i really cannot see it. yes i have n always been a negative thinker. n right now...its the right time to think negative. bcuz right now nobodys thinking positive abt anything. so..negatively...id rather stop evrything. n live life the fullest.cliche. but its true. im happier the way i am now.
