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Tuesday, January 08, 2008
10:48 PM
hello.
i havent been here to wish everyone a whole happy new year..
not too late ryt?
haha..well...
thank my internet fer gg haywire.
seriously.
so almost evryone wld start off with new years resolution n all that...
dun ask me wats mine bcuz ive nvr had one.
haha.
pathetic?
yeah.
mayb i shld start doing one.
one that i actually will try to achieve it.
sigh.
"Aim high...as high as the star."
or
"be realistic..know your limits...dun disappoint urself."
yeah so ...all along ive never believe in the first quote.
id rather not disappoint myself fer aiming so high n never be able to reach it.
pessimitic?
yeah..so me.
so wats up?
none too much surprising other then the jobless status still labelled.
sigh.
i cant even be a housewife in training becuz i juz simply refuse n hate housework.
poor girl...ull say?
yeah.
juz choices waiting to be made n here she is juz closing her eyes to evry possible choice that lay in frnrta her.
poor lil soul..she realli doesnt know wat she wants.
she juz got lost.
mayb she juz doesnt wana grow up.
theres juz too much responsibilities to face.
id soo rather turn my back on them all n lead a simple ignorant life...as they say ignorance is bliss...so were the yesteryears as lil kids n teenagers. sigh.
i dun wish fer my coming 21st.
i dun wish fer the so called finally;freedom!
becuz if i were to wish it...id have to start behaving like a soul of 21 years.
n i dun want to.
i like the way things are...i hate changes.
sigh..not like i can do anything to stop time or smthg like that.
i juz have to move on now.
somebdy Push me.
drag me if u have to.
any news?
well sya called to tell me abt something ive knew all along. thanx fer the news tho. i juz din relli cared to think too much abt it.i din know hes like serious. i thot hes ez to move on with the next chic as always. haha. n hes my girlfren.i cant date him! im sorry but my conversation tone with him is either serious biznezz or making fun of him as always. i cant be giggling n flirting with him. i juz cant! relli kid...u have to move on. knowing wat kind of girl i have been...Im such a gd example of a heartbreaker..cant u see that? oh i fergot ur blind.haha. so...is frens cool enuff?
yea...
n den within half hr...i got an online fren hinting me that he can tell his frens hes got a gf in spore. Haha. id rather date this one.haha...but ive nvr met him so...itz a hard thing to be bfgf online. haha...i dun think hes serious anw. but if i can i wld.haha..danger ain.danger danger. oh wellz...im not so desperate hello.
im juz waiting fer that stupid mail telling me i can move on to the next stage n get the job soon.i so need that job.plz oh god let me have that job.i cant imagine myslef doing any other thing.ive turn down every possible choices i had....cuz i cant say yes becuz i know i wun enjoy doing all that stupid shitty work.sigh.
i miss sch.
i miss my frens.
dont you?
