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Friday, March 21, 2008
1:28 AM
i am so missing my spot here..sitting in frnta de fav pc(even tho its slow n such..)
im missing my online activities...
omg...when was the last time i blogged? 1st march?? EONS ago!
sheeeeeshhhh...
well sumhow..march was...ok...
i started a job.
yeay.
well...as much as i want to be excited abt it...i ..sorta am...onli that its simply a draining-all-ur-energy job. the hours is LONG..n i get little sleep...can u believe i get abt 3hrs of sleep onli?! that depends on the shit planning shift i get. n becuz now my workplace is on town..i hafta get out an hour early...n if i were to report at 8 on a friggin shipment day i have to wake up like wat.. b4 6am?? when i oni get to sleep at like 1 or 2 if i reached home late becuz usual weekends closing will drag till forever!! urgh.
okok...i guess im still in the trying-to-survive stage n still trying to make frens n stuff..my customer service? well i shld be honestly saying that im not very much motivated to serve like how well i did in my previous job. this is like SUPER tiring n ur expected to put a blardy smile on ur blardy face n face fkd up fake posing freak customers whu blardy wasted our time to serve them n in the end decided to get NOTHING. wata !(&W#%*&&^#*!! sheeeeeeeeeesssh.n the everything...it was kinda overwhelming for me...
big brands doesnt mean they are ALL THAT. trust me.haha.
anw..yea..becuz of that i almost have no more life...n as wat sya sed..its robbing me of my social life! so much so that i havent get to do wat i like anymre. i mean i cant even laze in bed on my off day...that time has to be spent outside doing necessary stuff. i decided not to keep up reading bcuz i dun haf time to read as fast n my last loan was weeks past the due date. urgh.work is jus WORK.
n then suddenly...everybodys back to sch again.. or...wanting to go back to sch.sigh. i seriously dun know if i really want to go back again. i mean it wld be nice to do smthg like mass com n such..smthg i think i might like.. n gettg a degree.. (haha) but but but...i juz....i dunno.....in wat way i can ever get it...if i can...then how to complete wat i started. i really dunno. i juz felt that i had to start working....i felt so blardy bad to b dependant on my dad still when i already turned 21. n hes the oni working figure. i mean...i really duno... i dun wana get meself all muddled up thinking abt my future. but then again not thinking abt itll most prolly get my future all muddled up. sigh...i dunno.geez i juz wana block all these thoughts away...urgh...can i juz run away...RUN RUN RUN. reality check will juz make me go mad.
i have no time for me.. no time for my family..no time for my friends... n i hate it.
did i mention abt 13 march? well mayb its too late to say happy birthday to me...haha...but i hope its not to late to say that to Liyana..Happy Birthday Girl! :) hope u get ur lifes straightened out n do wat u wana do ok...wish u all de best!
sooo....
now suddenly i blank out on wat to say.. n to think i had SO much to update since 1st march. oh well... im juz mayb still hoping my fairy godmother will come down n tell me wat shld i do now. juz seriously for this once tell me wats the right thing for me to do now...now that may affect my entire future.for me...n my family.
i dun wana think too much.
im already halfway to losing it.
i dun need more pressure.
tell me wat to do...please.
