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Tuesday, May 13, 2008
4:23 PM
hey.
yesterday i practically blogged in my head.
today...i didnt think id that much to weite..but anyways..
yesterday was supposedly the most impt day at work bcuz weve got a couple of big shot ladies frm 'not singapore'...coming over to the work place to check us out.or rather how wer doing. n sooo....everybody was trying to behave their best. n so we were...its like almost everyone was working on that day n suddenly we haf so many many many many staffs at every location until there is relli nothing else to do cept to fold clothes that are already folded!! n fer the first time there i actually felt where r the fkg customers? where are they to make a mess fer us to clean? where are they fer us to serve?? cuz we have to of curz bz ourselves with smthg to do. but it was almost like hell bcuz there was nthg to do!! n fer the first time...time actually dragged so slowly...n by lunchtime...we were almost dying of boredom. luckily i was morning so i get to chao 1st... oh well... theyr still gona be here fer a couple o days...n since today im off..i hope theyll b gone by tmr.. not like we dun like them or anythg but its juz too pressurizing to ACT wat they want us to do. ah watever.
anw i watched tv the whole time after i got back frm work. i watched the monday night laughs; 8 simple rules...it was suppoz to be a funny sitcom.sumhow..it was sad. bcuz the dad died.n i cldnt even believed the dad died. i mean...'daddy died'. u know..most of the time...its hard to get me squeeze a tear but in that episode..they dun need to screw their faces bad crying to get my tears rolling..bcuz i juz imagined myself in their shoes.bcuz really i cannot afford to have anybody in my family to die...not now...not yet.not my daddy...not my mummy...not my bro or my siz. even if it were gods plans...then HEd have to help us. big time. n now i realize...mayb...i dun want to study anymore. at least not now. ive to help my dad now. hes taking all the possible burden there is...n im not even close to lessen anything frm him. n as the eldest...yes i feel helpless becuz i havent even thought about giving anything back to them...have u? no matter how fierce..how hot tempered..how insane he can be...hes ur dad.hes my dad. n i love him.(haha so much fer mums day..)(yea i love my mum too) just that...our everyday concerns n routines juz chokes us up n block away the feeling of love theyr giving us..n at this age...most of us r not feeling it..n as researchers says its normal to want to be away with friends and away frm mom n dad at this age... HECK WAT THEY SAY... Getting a life doesnt mean u haf to get out n be with ur friends... it can always mean u spend time with ur family...n thats where u feel the love..love them n be loved by them. u can still feel like the luckiest girl even if u dun have a boyfriend or not with one. u know wat...u can never EVER put ur bfs love first b4 ur family. becuz family can never dump u.
anyways.. im off today...n i went to get my pearls checked..yep..no cavity! n then got my haircut..nthg major done fer long term tho...but it was quite fun to step outa shop looking freaking different..haha. i sumhow wished it was permanent...but but but..im not one to give them permanent ones good maintainence.soo ill juz leave it as it is n after a wash..all them curlsll b'gone. sadly.
have u ever had sumone u know but not so well chat u up outa de blue n tells u that he fantasizes abt kissing u?? well yea..i din know if that night was a dream or watsoever becuz i did get that..only i felt kind of insulted at the end. i mean... i have my principles..n i dun juz go arnd kissing anyone fer nothing. like wth? wat do u take me for? n if feelings is not even involved...why is there the qn of a kiss?? it may only be Just a kiss...but to me it is NOT and NEVER JUST. u know...i cant believe that person can actually have the fkg guts to ask me that...n who the hell r u to ask me that? n who the hell r u to me that i can just give it so fkg easily? omg...it was such a super shocking night. n leme juz warn u...i dun do smooth talkers. impress me? yeah mayb...but i DONT DO SMOOTH TALKERS..or wld u rather call urself playboys? ah to fkg hell the whole lot of u..seriously...so dont u ever dare ask me such fkg qns EVER again...
u dont know me.yet.
no seriously...sheesh.
mayb i dun want to be in a relationship.... fer quite sum time.
guys r simply juz misbehaving their arses. insane. n dun blame us if we were to brand u losers fer life.fkg loser.
